Convocation

Its my final year already, so fast. Attended senior convocation yesterday. Cant believe they already graduated. Still remember the day when i first met them in my faculty. We had an introductory session and a lucky draw to choose our direct senior. The memory was still fresh and clear like it happen just a week ago. But yesterday, it makes me realized that it was already 3 years back then. Yesterday was a big day for them. When i saw them wearing their robes, i somehow had a feeling. Its a combination of sad, excited, worry, depress, uncertainty. Graduate is the end of our Uni life, but it is a also a beginning of a new chapter of our life. What are we going to be in future? Are we going to keep in touch? Will we meet again in future? But no matter what happens in the future, i will miss my life in uni for sure, just like i miss my life in secondary school. :) Lastly, congratulations to Daren, Alice and all other seniors. Wish you have a great life ahead.

Update

Finally, internship is done. Wow, I'm still wondering how i manage to survive it. No holiday, no afternoon nap, no games and have to work everyday from 9am to 6pm. I guess the main purpose of internship is for us to understand this cruel world, where we're about to work like slaves, so that we appreciate our time in uni or college. We sacrifice our precious time, our health for this pathetic piece of paper, paycheque. And at the end, we tend to use it to regain our time, our health. Sounds like recycle, isn't it? lol.
There are full of this so called double faces creatures out there. Smile in front of you, stab u at your back. Urghh, that's hurt. The worst thing is, you can't figure out who did it. And even if we know who did it, we still have to smile to them, be good with them so that we can survive in the community. Stick with the group or die alone. Doesn't sounds like we have a choice here. Life.....
Another thing is about this society, really disappointed with it. Robbery, Stealing, rape cases happens everywhere. My mum's friend was nearly dead because of these sick bastards. It happens in a morning last week where she went to buy breakfast for her family. Just the moment she stepped out of her car, a guy from behind strangled her with a rope or something. If she was sent to hospital with just a 5 to 10 minutes later, the pressure in her head will damage her neural system and she probably be dead already. Sooner or later, Malaysia is gonna be like Indonesia, where law enforcement will no longer be able to protect the properties and safety of its citizen.
Just chosen my FYP title last week. Still waiting for the result. Hopefully it wont be too hard. Suppose i have to do some literature review or google it to find out some resources for the titles before i choose any of it. But, due to some unexpected events.....haiz. Nvm, just pray for it. May the force be with me.

29th of May

Slip through giant metals, dodge every single obstacles and push yourself to the max, probably beyond the limit. "Go, don't stop!", the only phrase in my mind. She never done this great. I know she's also pushing herself very hard, i can feel it deep inside her as she trembled uncontrollably. But she never give up, waiting for my order and action. I know that she is giving the best she could and she'll stay with me till the last moment. Maybe this is the time for me to unleash her potential. Excitement is rushing through my veins. All i need is courage and concentration to go on.......110,115,120, we are now flying with the winds... Suddenly i lost my faith on her. i realized that she's not as young and energetic like old times. She's panting heavily... OK that's it. Its already a new record, proud of her. :) This is the first time i managed to push my Modenas at 120km/h++ at MRR2...amazing. I'm glad that i 'm still alive.. :p

Internship~~

Internship! Yea! It is the most enjoyable moment i had in my life, i met many new friends, i learnt new stuff, the job was very challenging, everything was cool there! woohoo!~~
Haha....thats crap. i guess no people would say like that. Most of the feedback from my friends was like..."sien la", "boring la", "nothing to do la". Thats exactly what i'm facing now. Sitting there for whole week without any assignment yet.
On the first day of work, the first impression was still ok. I report myself at the HR department and the staffing manager gave us a stimulus talk. "You guys are the lucky one. Out of 200 applicants, we only choose 20 interns. We choose you because we think that you people have potential in......bla bla bla."
In my mind was like "Hei, keep the crap short. Wanna brain wash me huh? try it on somebody else, maybe it works. " I bet he dont even know how many intern applicants they have. Probably he is trying to make us feel enthusiastic, so that we willing to contribute more. Come on, the allowance you giving me is neutralising my enthusiasm.
Ok, thats 1 thing, the second thing is, when the HR staff brought me to meet my supervisor. The first thing my supervisor said was "What? I have a trainee? Why nobody inform me 1 before this?".........Oh, Gosh. I already confirm my internship program with the company before Chinese New Year. Thats few months ago. Isit that hard to do some preparation for us within that period? What the heck la....
But luckily my supervisor was really a great person. She trying to get everything set up in this week so that i can start my project next week. And at the same time, she did arranged some lab visit for me so that i can understand more about this company. Really lucky to be placed under her. Hopefully i can help her out in her work. She said she need someone with IT background to help her in webpage stuff...just fear that i don't have the ability to do that. Hope everything goes fine and smooth.

Scary or funny!?

I didn't went home this weekend due to some reason. It's very unusual for me not to go home during weekend, especially Monday is a public holiday some more. So, to fully utilize my weekend , i decided to do some activities rather than sitting at home and rot, perhaps some exercise. Thus, i went for swimming with my friend this morning and something happen...
We arrived at the swimming pool at around 9am. Just a few people there, not crowded. Everything was fine except the sun was a little bit too shinny. Never mind, sun light in the morning provides vitamin D, so i guess it's time for my body cells to do some "photosynthesis". So, we continue our swimming lesson. We didn't actually swim aggressively. Most of the time we were just chit-chatting and enjoy our moment soaking inside the water. Then a middle-east guy came to the swimming pool. We both noticed him when he was showering next to the swimming pool. I guess it's not hard to notice him even if the swimming pool is crowded. His hairy and gorilla size body will certainly draws quite an attention. I understand that UPM adopts many foreign students and its not something unusual to see a middle-east guy here. Ok, fine. We continue our own activity.
At 945am, we decided to leave. We used to leave earlier because at around 10am, the bathroom will be full of people and fully occupied when the swimming session ends. When we entered the bathroom, there was no people there. So, i went to the showering site. Suddenly, the middle-east guy pops up at the corridor and stares at me. Maybe he had something to talk with me or what. But i didn't bother him, and i went into my cubical bathroom and start showering. After a while, my friend came over to my bathroom doorstep. He urged me to finish faster because he wanted to use my soap and shampoo. When i opened my door and wanted to pass my soap and shampoo to him, he told me that the middle-east guy spoke with him just now. He asked my friend a question, "Are you gay?" What the hell!? I do not understand why he would asked such question. There is only 3 possibilities:
1. He is joking. But my friend said that he doesn't looks like joking. I personally do not sense any humour in such question as well, especially when questioned by stranger.
2. He is doing survey for his Uni assignment or project. But if do so, he should first introduce himself before he freaks out other people.
3. He is gay.
What a day.....

CDEX Charity Run

Sometimes when excitement rushes into our brain, when our ears were deceived with unrealistic facts from devils, we could make terrible decision. That's what happened to me last Friday. I was about to join a 3km fun run just for charity purpose. But all my other friends insist to join the 7km competition run. First thought in my mind, " Hei, that's crazy. i might fainted half way...." Maybe my mind was not strong enough to keep my own decision, or maybe is because of the encouragement from friends, whatever, At the end, i signed up for the 7km run. At the very beginning after i signed up, i already never expect any winning. Its for charity thou, so i guess people would just take part for fun, ya know, a relaxing and enjoyable run, and not for the sake of prizes.

The night before the run, i starting to have something else in my mind. What will happen if i am so unfortunate and get the last place? What if i am the last person who pass through every check point? Are they going to stare at me with angry eyeballs? Will they throw harsh words on me such as..." Hei, loser! Run faster la, you are the f**king last person already! " It might happened, ya know, supposedly they can finish their job earlier. But because of me, they have to delay their job. All the frustration, unsatisfactory will surely affect their emotion. My fear is growing stronger inside me and the word "last" keep emerge in my mind.

We reached engine fac at around 730am in the morning. When i proceed to the registration counter, i saw many people already waiting there and preparing for their run. Based on their outfit, body shape, the way they do warm up, body stretching and my personal experience, i confirm that they are professional runners. At this moment, fear had filled all over my heart. "This is so shit, I'm going to finish last! God bless me.." I am so regret of taking part in this race.

When the race started, Kar Chun, Joon Leong and Hen Yeong dash so fast like that were free lunch in front. Within a minute, i lost sight of them. Left only me behind running alone. I start running slowly, practice a rhythm while breathing. I told myself that i have to at least run to Sanga Bahasa before i slow down. And i did it. Yes, mission accomplished! But at this point, my body was already exhausted. Crap, its not even half way yet!? i stop running and i decided to start walking with constant speed. When my stamina recovered, i start walking with a faster speed. I saw some people already give up half way. I keep remind myself, "don't give up, finish it at least." Finally, i did manage to finish the race in around 1 hour. Kar Chun was the best among us, his record was 31mins. Salute!

There was one interesting part while i was walking at the main campus guard house. There was an ambulance from pusat kesihatan keep following me for quite a distance. Like i was going to fainted or what...lol. Anyway, great run!

Design of life

Many things happened last week. It all pop into my life just so sudden. I guess most of my friends knew what happened. Sometimes, i was wondering that, is it just mainly coincidence? Or is it a message from god? Why does it had to be on my birthday? Is it the beginning of my bad days? Recently, many things just gone wrong. I fallen sick once i returned from Ipoh. I'm more easily to get depressed, almost had an accident yesterday, endless assignments. I always had a feeling that there is a connection between all these things. I know i shouldn't been thinking all this ridiculous stuff, but i just cant free myself from my conservative mind. Chinese New Year is just around the corner, but I'm still not in new year mood yet. Maybe everything happened so sudden, and i cant just switch on and off my mind like switching television channel. After all, that's the beauty of god 's creation right? To have a human heart, to care for someone, to miss someone and to love someone. I guess i need to be more focus on what I'm doing in future. Life is short and anything can happen. No one can accurately predict what's going to happen tomorrow. We heard this all the time but do we appreciate the true meaning of it? Most of us don't. I understand that experience will make people grow, but trust me, some experience are too pricey to be experienced. Final words, be honest of what you do and no regret.
Lastly, I'm wishing Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends and have prosperous year ahead.